My random thoughts and ramblings with a special blend of attitude thrown in!

Optimist or ostrich?

I’m a card-carrying optimist, always have been and I hope I always will be. Not every single thing in my life has been pleasant; I’ve dealt with some mind-numbing tragedies, faced the loss of way too many loved ones and survived more of life’s crazy obstacles than I ever imagined I’d face … but haven’t we all? Survived is the key word; we’ve all lived through things and emerged somewhat scarred, a great deal sadder and hopefully, a whole lot wiser. And, if we’re really lucky, a lot more appreciative of the little things that helped us weather through our personal storms.

A friend of mine is just the opposite; an unpleasant event in her life has become the focus of her entire being over the last year. Her social networking page is filled with constant lamentations of how awful her life is; any attempt by anyone to coax her into seeing something — anything — in a positive light is met with ridicule by her. She says we’re all burying our heads in the sand, pretending to enjoy a life that, by her standards, is less than ideal.  At first, I worried that she was dealing badly with depression, but over the course of time, it’s become apparent to us all that she totally enjoys basking in the warm waters of negativity. Personally, I feel like she’s fallen in love with being a pessimist, because according to her, that way, she’ll never be disappointed. Kind of sad, really.

And it makes me wonder … who is really the ostrich here?

Having taken a couple of steps into the 5th decade of my life, I’ve recently been pondering what new challenge I could set forth for myself. As I lay tossing and turning last night, trying unsuccessfully to shut off my constantly babbling rambling brain, it occurred to me that maybe my brain was trying to tell me something. Perhaps if I gave those thoughts a stage to dance around on, they’d be exhausted enough at night to leave me to a peaceful slumber.

Sleep deprevation is not a pretty thing, folks, especially when facing the beginning of the work week after a four day holiday weekend! Tonight, when I slip into my bed, I’m hoping the conversation will go something like this…

Brain: Did you fix the coffeepot/turn on the alarm/lock the doors?
Me: Yes, yes and yes.
Brain: Dinner tomorrow…given any thought to that?
Me: Leftovers… now shhh! I’m trying to sleep!
Brain: But what about…
Me: SHHHH!
Brain: But the blog…what are you going to write if I don’t bounce the ideas off you now?
Me: You have an appointment — 6 am tomorrow. Me, you and our friend, Caffeine. We can.. ahem… brainstorm then.
Brain: But morning is HOURS away!
Me: See that little door, just to your left? The red one, with the pretty window? That’s your cerebral office, complete with computer, notepads and everything you need. Just go in, shut the door and go for it… but quietly! 
Brain: But…
Me: No sleep for me, no blog for you! Now disconnect for the night or else!

Is this wishful thinking or a possible working solution? Only time will tell!

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